a spoonful weighs a ton

Here I come 80 degree weather! I just finished my last midterm and I can't stop smiling. I crave warm weather. It just makes me so happy. I can feel amazing things are going to happen on this missions trip. I can feel God preparing me for something bigger than myself, something I never thought I could do.

And though they were sad

They rescued everyone

They lifted up the sun

A spoonful weighs a ton

Giving more than they had

The process had begun

A million came from one

The limits now were none

Being drunk on their plan, they lifted up the sun

Forcing it off with their hands

The trapdoor came undone

Above our heads it swung

The privilege had been won

Being drunk on their plan, they lifted up the sun

Yelling as hard as they can

The doubters all were stunned

Heard louder than a gun
The sound they made was love
~Flaming Lips~

thrills

It's starting to sink in that i'll be in the Dominican Republic in just a few day. I can't wait to get to know my missions team but more importantly I can't wait to see what God is doing there. I can't imagine anything more exciting than being apart of God's will. Him moving. It's an excitement that's kinda ironically mixed with peace....because if God is with us, who can be against us? I'm so eager for understanding and I feel that i'm finally on the verge of finding it.

is this happening?

This whole blogging phenomenon is really strange to me. A part of me has no idea why i'm doing this but that's true for 95% of the things i do. What really spurred me into action is a relatively close friend of mine is pretty into blogging. I really had no idea how fantastic a writer she was until i read her blog. She was saying such beautifully vulnerable and truthful things. I was really touched and for the first time saw blogging at its potential. This wasn't some girl whining about her life in suburbia or trying to come off as really deep thinker; complete with 18th century philosophical references. This was an intelligent person trying to connect with others about things that matter. Things that were pulling on her heart. Things she knew other people must be dealing with. Because if you only blog about you and you don't try to find the connection in other people, what's the point to publishing it online? That's why the idea of blogging used to aggravate me. It's people talking about themselves as if everyone cared. just write in your diary! don't be so self centered! But my friend's blog was nothing like that. Through her words you can tell she is searching for something greater than herself and she shares her words of wisdom with her friends. that's not her talking about herself. it's more of a selfless blog that promotes people coming together and helping each other. That is why i am inspired to do the same. i'm not as good of a writer as she is but i hope to keep her blog as an example for mine. I feel like i have so many thoughts in me that sometimes i don't spend enough time really pondering them. This is an opportunity to share my thoughts with people who value them. I pray that my God blesses me with clarity through all of this. I trust He will.