Surprisingly

I was talking to my good friend Jen a couple weeks back. we started talking about how hard it is to be a Christian when everyone around you isnt, especially in college. It can be incredibly discomforting when all your friends, professors, people you look up to, whose opinion you respect, people you love find your whole belief system to be complete rubbish. it's a tough pill to swallow, even if you saw it coming. A part of me wishes I went to a Christian College because i'm not getting the answers I need here. I guess I'm still just a baby. I wish I could do what that Georgia O'Keefe talked about to "strip away everything I've been taught, to start anew." It sounds incredibly liberating; to start over and see where you end up. I just wish religion was simpler. I wish God wasnt so mysterious, or as mysterious as we make Him. I wish He didnt leave men to write His Word, or decide what is scripture and whats not. I wish God didnt have an enemy. I wish the Bible still made sense to me.

Yet, somehow, I still find myself in constant prayer. In constant awe. I still feel like I have the truth inside me. I still dont feel alone when im by myself. I still feel like there is something guiding me towards greatness, that is outside of myself. I still feel that victory is mine, yeah, surprisingly.

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"When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior."Isaiah 42:2-3